Saturday, September 29, 2012

Time for a little decorating



So, I got the porch decorated early.  I figured I better do it while I had a moment of free time.  I got the blog decorated too....LOL.  Nothing inside though.  I don't know if I will even have time to drag out all of my Halloween toys, or more importantly....time to put them away afterwards.  The thing is that I LOVE the decorating part.  The UN-decorating and putting stuff away?  Not so much. 

Anyway, its a rainy Saturday afternoon, and we just finished running a ton of errands in a maddening rush of weekend crowds.  I HATE running errands on weekends, but its when I have the time.  Luckily, Bruce took over half of the list, we set off in separate cars, so it wasn't as bad as it could have been.  He called me at some point and we both agreed that parking and check out lines were almost like Christmas kind of bad.  I am not sure why, unless its the rain.  Or maybe there is an ECU home game.  I am so oblivious to football that I really wouldn't know.  I only care about it in so far as it makes restaurants a nightmare on game days. 

I know I have been absent here for way too long, so let me see what I need to say to play catch up.  I had the gall bladder (HIDA) scan that showed my GB is only doing about 5 percent of what it's supposed to do. The GI Dr. feels like I should go ahead and have that surgery.    I have an appointment on Monday, and while its a check up with my regular Dr., I want to discuss things with her before I schedule anything further. I am reluctant to part with any more body parts, honestly.  I was thinking it would be cool to put off surgery until next summer....you know, take time off during the worst of the heat.  But I had another attack Thursday night, and ended up calling in sick Friday.  That's the second time in 6 weeks, and I am pretty sure my office isn't going to put up with sick call in's indefinitely.  Maybe I will schedule for time off during December instead.  Hopefully it can wait that long.......

Bruce is going on Tuesday to be evaluated at a sleep clinic.  He snores, and while that doesn't particularly bother HIM, he also feels tired occasionally, like he doesn't have restful sleep sometimes. He has to spend an entire night at the clinic.  I don't know what to expect.  I can't really say that I hear him stop breathing, or have gaps in his breathing like so many people do who end up using the breathing machines at night.  Its more the snoring, and I don't know what they will do about that.  But we will see.  I am happy he is doing this, not just for the snoring, but also to be sure nothing else is going on.  I've heard so many people say that having sleep issues "fixed" made a big difference in how they feel overall.  Good Lord, maybe I should make an appointment too????  LOL. 

But overall, things are ok here.  We are definitely looking forward to our annual October beach trip with friends of ours.  We have rented a house at the Outbanks for a week, and our friend Jeff is coming in from Seattle, like usual.  We are excited to see him.  Chris and Jessica too.  I know they just live an hour away, but still....life gets so busy we haven't seen them since Christmas!!!  Seriously.
And that is just crazy.  But Chris makes this heinous 4 hour commute (2 hours one way) every day, Jessica is trying to finish up a degree in accounting, and Bruce and I just feel overwhelmed by work and responsibilities of keeping up this huge house and property.  We joke about moving to a townhouse.  I mean, HE jokes.  I am completely serious.  As he is the one who spends every free moment of our summers trying to keep up with cutting acres of grass, you would think he would be jumping at the chance.  But not yet.  Maybe one day.....
Thursday, September 27, 2012

Still Here

I am still here....still alive. I have been busy, work has been crazy. Hopefully life will slow down a little and I can catch my breath. I will try to write a proper post soon. Love you all!
Sunday, September 9, 2012

Patience...or lack thereof

I can't get myself together enough to write a blog.  How sad is that?  I have been mired in conflict with work lately until I am exhausted from the effort to NOT lose every shred of sanity that I ever possessed.  I don't know where the end of the conflict lies, or what it will hold.  It involves an office that has been operating on such a skeleton crew that we don't have enough clerks to actually get the mail to us.  I wait 2 or more hours a day.  Yesterday (I was at home but in contact with the office) carriers had to wait 3-4 hours to be able to leave for their routes.  It is ridiculous.  Our union seems useless, nobody seems to be able to figure out how compensation for time wasted should work.  I just feel anxious and angry all of the time, which in turn, makes even my off hours and days feel ruined.  Its a failing system, and I know it, but still....I should have the ability to do what I can to fix it, deal with it, and get on with my life outside of it.  And I can't figure that part out.  I get angry to the point that I feel my brain explode and I can no longer see straight on an almost daily basis.  It can't be good for my health....mental or physcal.  I don't know....

So anyway, thats what has me blocked with the blog writing.  Blocked with living, too, apparently.  I am almost ready to throw in the towel and walk away while I'm still standing, but again....6 more years and I can retire officially with benefits and all of those kinds of things that I really DO need in the long run.  I am going to talk to my Dr. at my appointment in a couple of weeks.  I know I am depressed.  I am sure that doesn't help my ability to cope any.  It would be great to figure out a way to just hang in there for a while longer.  So....yeah.  Its a crazy situation and its making ME crazy.  Hopefully its temporary, and things will become more tolerable soon.  In the meantime, forgive me if I am a slack blogger.  You don't want to hear from me when I am in a mood...LOL. 
 
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