Happy Birthday Sis

Tomorrow is my sister's birthday. I won"t tell you her age. Suffice it to say that she is younger than I am. I miss her, you know. Life has gotten in the way and we haven't seen each other since Stephen and Hannia's wedding. She lives out of state, so its just not easy. Every time we plan something, something else comes up. Like trying to see her when we were in Asheville over New Years....she had the flu. I think her whole family had the flu over Christmas vacation. And it makes me sad, but I am not going to give up yet.

We used to talk on the phone once a week or so, but since she has gone back to work, that has become texts and emails. I want it to be better....I think she wants it to be better. Its not like we don't want to see each other. We aren't angry or trying to avoid each other. Its just that schedules never seem to mesh, or family obligations creep up, or this thing or that thing happens unavoidably.

Its a rare thing, to have someone who knows what your life was like before....before grown up stuff got in the way. I think about that a lot. Like how nobody else really knows what it was like to live in our house, with our parents. How my Mother, whom I loved dearly, had a harsher, judgemental side that few ever got to see. But my sister and I were quite familiar with it. How when Mom was angry you got the silent treatment. And how that was worse than any punishment. She is the only other person on the planet who understands things like that, and how it forms your personality and colors the rest of your life.

I miss her. And we WILL figure out a way to be more in contact. Until then, though, I hope she is having a very fabulous birthday celebration with her family.

I was thinking about all of this just last night when my husband found a song online from way back in his childhood. "Bring the country to the city" He was delighted, and said that as kids they would play it whenever they wanted to make it snow. LOL. And I am sure his sister, Jeanne would absolutely remember that song even if nobody else in the whole world knows it (not sure about his brothers). Actually, now I know it too, and having heard it, I kind of have it stuck in my head. Funny stuff, those childhood memories.