Light Bulb Moments

I am convinced that this blog isn't being read by anybody besides myself, and maybe my husband on occasion when he wants to see if I have been talking about him again....LOL. My comments are pretty much nonexistent and I have given it all a lot of thought.  I have moments of deciding to just let it go.  I pretty much keep up with everybody through Facebook anyway.  And status updates mean that I can give out the pertainent details, right?  I tend to share pictures mostly through Facebook already.  But the fact is that I enjoy this place, this blog.  It won't change the world, or cure cancer or anything.  But what it is, basically, is a journal of my day to day existence, and the lives of my family.  And so it finally dawned on me in a light bulb moment that the fact is that I really don't care if this is a widely read blog.  I don't advertise, or give out the website because I don't want to.  I want to feel safe here, and that its all fine and dandy the way that it is.  Problem solved. 

Another light bulb moment recently?  I wrote over the weekend about an upsetting incident on Facebook where a person posted some offensive racist picture, and I voiced my opinion about how hateful it was.  And there was a big fiasco of conversatives against liberals and how this idea is wrong, or these people shouldn't be in our country and so forth and so on.  It was ugly and it really upset me.  I unfriended the offender, easy enough...never gave another thought about deleting that kind of garbage from my newsfeed.  But still I seethed.  I was angry about injustice and racism.  And the more that I thought about it, the angrier I got.  Until finally.....light bulb!  I was fully invested in HATING this person, and all the people who agreed with her.  Hating them all for their beliefs, and ideas.  And that?  That brought me right down to the level that was making me sick to begin with. 
I realized just how thin the line is between standing up for what you believe in and crossing over into hatred and persecution because somebody doesn't agree with me.  Anyway, I do believe that hatred will get us nowhere fast.  And while I haven't exactly figured out how to agree to disagree with something I find morally repugnant, still....I have got to figure out how to separate the hateful actions from the actual person.  I'm working on it, but its proving to be harder than it sounds. 

But still, the state of things in this country makes me sad.  We are so far apart...the different political parties.  So far that it feels like there could never be a solution.  And if I allow that thought to stick around for very long I begin to feel so sad and depressed for the way things are.  I have begun to consider taking a break from all of it.  The news, and anything politically related.  I am not sure how helpful that would be, but then again, how much help am I to anybody if I can't get my own thoughts in order?